Saturday, March 20, 2010

Why I did not write in past months?

I know I owe you, my kind and concerned audience, an explanation about long delay in updating this weblog for past couple of troubling months. I wrote troubling months! It doesn't mean that I didn't get into trouble due to what I thought or wrote in the past, just look at it in comparative terms and times. I apologize and am so sorry for the long delay but it was forced to me, I didn't choose it intentionally.

I used to get loads of death threats. I should confess that I never got used to them probably because I am all for life and of course I am not religious. They were agitating, pushed me back every time and stopped me for awhile to think again and reassess my position and standing but at the end, none of them could hold me back until this time. For obvious reasons I should not go into details.

But I can tell you this, it was crushing me everyday knowing I was just a key away from keeping this blog update but simply I couldn't afford the risk to type anything. I was in prison, not in the usual sense of it, not in the one with the steel bars. Mind prison is just as real as physical cell and it deprives you of liberty. And you can't take it to the law when the legal system is chronically corrupted and law enforcement are the one discriminating and intimidating in order to suppress you.

It was torturing me mentally every seconds passing by. In The United Nations Convention Against Torture defined these kind of actions as torture:

"any act by which severe pain or suffering, whether physical or mental, is intentionally inflicted on a person for such purposes as obtaining from him or a third person information or a confession, punishing him for an act he or a third person has committed or is suspected of having committed, or intimidating or coercing him or a third person, or for any reason based on discrimination of any kind, when such pain or suffering is inflicted by or at the instigation of or with the consent or acquiescence of a public official or other person acting in an official capacity. It does not include pain or suffering arising only from, inherent in or incidental to lawful sanctions."
But I am not whining. This is the path I took when I started my first Persian language blog long time ago before Rotten Gods. Authorities blocked it almost instantly, they didn't like what I wrote so I knew it is not going to be easy. I am slowly trying to pick up where I left although threats are real.

Some Iranian bloggers arrested since Iranian Presidential election on Jun 2009, one of them is my friend who they held him in incommunicado detention without a warrant, any charge or conviction. In this step authorities exercise physical and psychological tortures to break detainees and coerce them to false confessions against themselves. I can not name him and his blog here because any association with Rotten Gods will do him more harm and put him to more tortures.

There you go, now you know a bit about this long delay.


  1. Happy New Year! It is certainly nice to know that you are currently well. Know that everyday my desire is for a free and democratic Iran that my son may visit someday without fear of violence.

  2. Happy Nowruz to you too, Stephanie!
    Thanks, I am OK. I hope you are doing OK, too.
    I hope so too, I hope so.

  3. Helooooooooo!

    I am very glad that you are back in bussines!

    I was worried about you and was very clear for me that you are in hard times. I will pray for you!

    Like the word: the blood of the martyrs is the seed of the church, I can say that the blood of the iranian martyrs is the seed of the liberty.
    Be strong!

    I think that the best way to survive there is to have some person who can pressure iranian authorities from outside.
    At some time I was thinking to call to iranian embassy from Bucharest in order to press them about you.

    Welcome back!
    Andrei Ivan, Romania.

  4. Hello Andrei

    Nice to hear from you and thank you for your concern. It means a lot to me.

    Well, I had to stop it, I couldn't do anything else. I just can not explain thoroughly what happened.

    You know better than me that in reactionary regimes, things always doesn't works the way it should. and there are way too many fanatic religious in Islamic Republic.

    I was safe and ok. I should have write something at that time, sorry about it. Again I am really appreciate your thoughts and concerns.